The Bench

I was sitting there
On a bench seeing
Others walk by

They don't seem happy
They walk steadily
And I just watch them
One by one
Leaving me behind

And the wind accompanies
Them in their journey
It blows on my face
Flips my pages of thought
And made me leave the bench

Thank You

I started out
Being myself
Not knowing
What am I doing
Then you came along
Showing me
Your persona
And charm hidden
Behind laughs and smiles

You're light with your words
You're light with your thoughts
You're light with your perceptions
And acceptance
And thank you
For being another bright
Wonderful colour
On the canvas of my life

Serum

As the sun rises,

Its rays creeps in the space

Wakes me up,

I see you -

The eternal hope -

The serum,

To keep alive,

To keep survive.

Flower

No rain is pouring

Nor love is given –

My little flower wilts.

Just like us

Like you and me.

Away without rain nor love

Will make us die –

Slow enough

To make us realize,

We could fix our flower.

Lisa

I knew
That you are the only one
The moment you said
"I do"

I knew
We would sail this world
Through calm and storm
As one

But I never knew
This storm is too strong
For me face it alone
Losing you
Is losing pieces of me
And I can't picture myself
Without you on my side.

I regret
On those moments
Where time is expensive
And I can't afford it.



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Run

Along the breeze
Of mid November
Wher the rain always pours
And the sun shines less
We ran together
Never regret
Didn't stop
Till the last breath
Pushing us to

We know it hurts
To push our souls
Into the run
That we never done
But believe me
It felt good

Don't stop running
Don't stop running


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See

Fed by sight

By pictures,

That made with agendas

They create

On what’s wrong and right

They define

Beauty and fame

And gave us promises

That we can be

Like what we see

Get out

Get out and go away

Away from what’s given and shown

Stories

Stories are written

On the face

Of every mom and dad

Reflected through

Wrinkles and lines

You can read

But you can never get

What they got

The spotlight

I'm walking looking for the spotlight
That will shine
And light up my way

When th ebeam
Flashes onto my skin
I feel warmth
Gladness
Seeps in myself
In love under it

It always move
Never static
And I need to keep walking
And look for it

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Marina

Talking to you
Makes me feel warm
Cozy in my own words
Free in sharing thoughts
Makes me humble by wisdom

It won't be fair
If I compare you
Like how Shakespeare did
I can't write as good as him
But you ar as god as you
You're only you.
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The man behind the mask

Telling you the truth

Is hurting me

Sharing you thoughts

That drifts you

Away from me.

“I’ll always be happy for you”

 I live

As the man behind the mask. 

Colors

My life is enlightened
By spreading colors all over
Bright, dark colors
Making myself who I am
And I'm glad
That one of the colors
Is you

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Look Closer

Look closer,
And see the finest details.

Look closer,
And flash all the flaws.

Look closer
And lead hatred to your heart.

While others
Step back,
Enjoying the whole picture.

Buy Her Flowers

They said,

“Buy her flowers. She’ll love it!”

I bought her flowers.

She smiles

And said

“You’re such a sweet friend. You don’t have to do this”

Lust II

Driven by lust,

To the edge

Of unwanted willingness.

Dark sides are shown

Disgusts

Those with sanity.

I’ve been there

Satisfactions are

Not always there

Lonely Souls

Wind and noises
Tagging up
To be with the lonely souls

Waiting for fortunes
Waiting for love
Waiting for urgency

And I'm writing
Among the souls.
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Good

I'm no good.
I can't be good.
I can never be good.

Would you still accept me?
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I can't sleep

It's late.
It can't sleep.
I can't stop
Thinking of you.
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Aftermath

Heart racing
Faster than never
Glimpse of truth
Has been told
Flashing before the eye
Waiting for
The aftermath
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Leave For Good

When you look back
And you realized
That I'm not here
I want you to know
I leave for good
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Greed

Their sanity was taken

Replaced by masks of greed

Releases vicious animals in them

Leaving spills behind

Snatching love and affection

From the one who builds it with trust

We wonder

Can we just live together

Leaving hate and greed behind

And be grateful on what he have?

Greed kills 

Demon and Angel

There’s a demon

In you and me

Can we contain it?

And keep it chained?

Or will we let it go?

The king that rules

The kingdom of sanity

Losing the thoughts.

The right mind.

And in you and me

There’s an angel too. 

Hold

I can see you’re holding

Yourself in;

Chained it up deep

Inside your wildest side of soul

I adore

Your power

You hold it up

Perfectly

Just to fit in.

I wish I can do that

I wish I can do that

Tonight

Tonight,

Is the night

 To take the

Pills of anticipation,

Pints of excitement,

Let's make

The rest of the night,

As tones of happiness,

As carefree melody,

And no one,

Could whisper nor shout,

What we shouldn’t do.                     

Please tell me

You’re feeling it too. 

Just like in movies

Can you take me

To the place

Where everything seems

To be nice and warm

Just like in movies?

Can you take me

To the place

Where I can always

Be the one that you love

Just like in movies?

Can you take me

To the place

Where you and I

Would dance and laugh and kiss

All night long

Just like in movies? 

He talks

He talks

When he is out

From his pure consciousness

He talks

Straight from his heart

When everybody is silent

And deep asleep

He talks

Words that neither you nor I

Could understand

But he talks

Things that we never

Have guts to say 

Deceived

We were shown

And served

With fantasies

Through screens and tubes

Of unrealistic dreams

That can only deceive

Dirty fools

Of you and I

I saw enough

I listened enough

I think enough

To not to be deceived

By wicked entertainers

Who showed you

Wat you want to see

Not what you

Need to see

They will deceive you

You know it

But you love it

Because

You never strong enough

To handle the truth accepting the fact

That you are being deceived

This Night

This night

As it deepens its darkness

As cool wind blows upon

As quietness creeps in within

I found myself

In deep serenity

In certain calmness

In demanding peace

Maybe because

I stop myself

From thinking

Devilish thoughts

That would destroy

My unholy spirit

And aimless passion

This is the night like no other

Tomorrow would be different

Tomorrow would be insane 

Drives you away from me

Words from you lighted me up
Shines the sun of hope
Through my hollow heart

Feelings has been told
Truth has been heard

It's hard for me
To bear another truth
From you even
Hearing words from you
Means the world to me

I gave you my thoughts
On how you should
Drive your desire
Towards him
Though it will
Drives you away
Away from me

I'm delighted
To help you out
To say my two cents
And let it be heard
But I'm devastated
When you asked for my thoughts
That would drive you away
From me
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I’m glad

I’m glad that you still remember

To send me wishes

Even after I stop

Doing it for you

I’m glad

That you still

Realize my existence

Reminisce memories

Together

I’m glad

That we still look

For each other

And held hands

Even when it no longer

Means anything

For you and me

Things that can’t be seen

Things

That can’t be seen

Can give you comfort

Serene feelings

Peaceful thoughts

It’s amazing

To be able to

Sip this glass of serenity

Leaving behind

Blasts of chaotic behaviours

Cherish it

While you can 

Lust

Sinful desires

Lustful thoughts

Feeling it

Surrounded by desires

And fantasies

sickening

That is not

What I want

Losing You

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-----Original Message-----
From: safri7751@gmail.com
Date: Mon, 18 Nov 2013 16:45:38
To: <site-of-mind.ct110@blogger.com>
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Subject: Losing You

I wouldn't have any idea
How can I face
Another sunrise
When the thought
Of losing you
In my mind

I wouldn't have any idea
How can I carry on
With my own life
When the thought
Of losing you linger
In my mind

I wouldn't have any idea
How can I sleep at night
When the thought
Of losing you linger
In my mind

I wouldn't have any idea
How can I have
Any more hopes
When the thought
Of losing you linger
In my mind

My life without you
Is no longer a life
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This road

I will walk this road

The same road

Where I felt pain

Seeps in my nerves

And bones

Denying my sanity

In total eruption.

I will walk this road

As nothing nasty ever happened.

I will walk this road

No matter what you say

No matter what you do

As I heard

The same denying voices

Who speaks out

The same vibe

Like you did.

No one can stop me

Nothing

From keep on going

Because this is my path

Towards infinite destinations.

I shall not stop

Npt even to take a glance

To look behind.

The first time

I saw you

In a beautiful morning

Where the sun shines

Emitting its hopes and expectations.

I talked to you

For the first time

I didn’t see anything coming

Just plain, simple exchange

Of words and thoughts.

We worked together

Upholding responsibilities

Proving abilities

While tying ourselves

Closer to each other.

We have seen each other

Every one a while

Even we’ve seen each others eyes

Almost every time the sun shines.

We shall cherish the moment together

As it made me feel

As glorious as the sun

Together with its warmness

In every morning

That we wake up to..

I shall hope

That we will always be together

Because being one

Is being us 

The end

Don't be afraid

Both of us are the same

Walking the same way

Ahead of the same destination

Our ending is always the same.

 

Why be afraid?

It's not going to be painful

You have been deceived

 by ideas

Of leaving and reaching

The destination is scary

 

You have been told

That the end

Is nasty.

You shouldn't believe in them dear.

They know nothing.

 

We vowed to be together

To walk together

And end this together

No worries dear

We shall end this together

 

They can be nice

The end can be nice

As long as

You and i

Work to please them.

Pain memories

You can’t stop this stream

Neither do I

We are the same

Standing

Refuse to keep walking

Watching the stream

Of memories

Flowing parallel

As the time.

I am not afraid

To keep moving

Feels like

I am amputated

And chained

With memories

And I like it here

Embedded

With memories

I have no thoughts

About you

Why you are here?

Why you keep on standing?

Why don’t you move on

Like other?

Just leave me behind

If your intention

Is waiting for me

I’m in pain

But I love it

And I can’t afford to lose it. 

Blank space

Where’s a little blank space

Where I really want to fill up

Since no one care

To help me out

I’m living in it

Trapped

In my own

Little blank space.

I wish I could

Find someone

Who would

Grab my hands

And take me out

Leave this place

And fill it up

A man who would die alone

I am a man of mistakes

I will not preach

And tell you what to do

I shall not speak          

As what I say will disgust you

I shall never be together

As others will never see me

I would stand alone

behind the curtains of shadows

I am unacceptable

My mistakes are nasty

So just go for them

And leave me alone 

This Pain

This pain

Reminds me of a journey

Where I look for the meaning

The idea

The people

The sadness

And happiness.

This pain

Will never let me go.

This pain

Is chained around me

No way

In this sanity

I can unlock it.

It is already said

to be a part of me.

A part of you.

And a part of us.

Magnetized

I am magnetized

To someone

Who are able to

listen to my stories

being truthful

And share to me

Their thoughts and stories.

Hunger

You claimed that you

Understand stuff and stuff.

But the truth-

you are empty.

Drained.

Hunger for some more.

You never satisfied.

The Fifth of November

    Remember, remember!

    The fifth of November,

    The Gunpowder treason and plot;

    I know of no reason

    Why the Gunpowder treason

    Should ever be forgot!

    Guy Fawkes and his companions

    Did the scheme contrive,

    To blow the King and Parliament

    All up alive.

    Threescore barrels, laid below,

    To prove old England's overthrow.

    But, by God's providence, him they catch,

    With a dark lantern, lighting a match!

    A stick and a stake

    For King James's sake!

    If you won't give me one,

    I'll take two,

    The better for me,

    And the worse for you.

    A rope, a rope, to hang the Pope,

    A penn'orth of cheese to choke him,

    A pint of beer to wash it down,

    And a jolly good fire to burn him.

    Holloa, boys! holloa, boys! make the bells ring!

    Holloa, boys! holloa boys! God save the King!

    Hip, hip, hooor-r-r-ray!

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Sane

I feel so alive-

With this great vibe

Down my spine

I sense joy,

Rhyming with melody

And rhythm,

Everything means something sane.

Truths

You are fed,

With truths from all over.

Some of you believe.

Some of you accept.

Some of you follow.

Some of you think,

Deeply enough,

To spot on the flaws.

And demands for the real truth.

The one who sits in between,

Is suffers the most. 

One Word

There is one word,

That would describe,

Who you are.

One word,

That would project,

A reel of moments,

In your life,

To others’ eyes.

The residual sense,

Of your past joy

And sorrow.

One word,

Is enough,

When you think,

It’s not.

To Share

At some point of your life,

You will always want

Someone

To be with you

Through your highs

And lows.

To share your

Happiness,

Enjoyment,

Laughter.

To feels your,

Anxiety,

Sorrow,

Sadness.

The one who would would cheer you up

To keep on going

Even when some voices in your head

Asking you

To giving up.

The one who would keeps

You company

When you are lonely.

The one who would

Receive a bit

Of your success

That you give.

It feels good when

You have someone

To share.

Your Dream

You wake up from your dreams,

With an idea of,

Making it come true.

But then you realize,

You can’t.

You just-

Can’t.

Even how eager you are,

In accomplishing it.

Means nothing,

As for some reasons,

Someone or something,

Will always try to bring you

Down, and tear you

Apart.

But you keep on doing it,

Because you believe in it,

Believe in-

Your dream.

Better

When the feelings,

The emotions,

The ideas,

Come in,

I swear,

That is the best moment

That could happen

To me.

Because I need those-

Emotions, feelings, ideas,

To spread my wings

And fly higher

Than before.

But sometimes,

What I did

Is not enough.

That’s why I’m stuck here,

Unable to move on.

Almost paralyzed.

Would you teach me,

To be better? 

Worth it

I bet you still remember

The moment when she

Would make you go nuts

Literally.

The moment you

Do everything she wants

Just to make her happy

Even when others

Think you are really,

Screwed up.

The moment you

Become a total duouchebag

By leaving up your friends

Just to be with her.

The moment you

Loses your ind,

Sanity,

And calmness,

In front of everyone,

Just because of her.

The moment when

Others are ogling at you

and her,

Over something

That shouldn’t be

Spreaded out

The moment

When you still wants to

Spend her your time

And money

Even you know

You are a total broke

In both ways.

The moment when

You would do supid things

And risk yourself

Just because

You wanna show your ‘true’ self

To her.

I just really hope

That she’s worth it. 

Why?

I was in pure darkness.

Sad.

Confused.

Envious.

And you came in,

Like a torch,

Lighted up my life.

Poured me glasses of gladness.

Made me dance to the rhythm.

Then you went away,

Dissappeared,

Left me

Sad.

Confused.

Shattered onto pieces

That can never be fixed.

Why?

Temporary sanity

I was surrounded

With everyone

Yet,

I still feel

Cold.

Lonely.

Empty.

I just wanna be free.

Like a strong stallion,

Run as fast as it can,

The moment,

When the rope is untied,

When the gate is opened,

To the finish line.

I don’t wanna be crazy.

I love this,

Temporary sanity.

That’s how I write

I’m just a lousy writer

Who unable to write

A perfect

poem.

I write when my mind,

Can’t shut down its system

Even my body urges.

Usually,

When I think too much,

Or emotional,

Like how gilrs normally do it.

I’m not gonna lie.

I’m being truthful.

That’s how I write.