Bury Myself

Dirt and filth

Is part of me.

Given chances

Broken;

Right before everyones’ eyes

I shall never stand

Tall enough

As everybody around.

You should have let me

Bury myself

And I’m doing it right now.

Sending the Love

Living farther

Away from you

Making me stronger

Enveloped with hopes and dreams

Taking you and I

Closer to each other.

Every night

The moon sends the love

From me to you.

Puzzle

I looked fine

As the calming clouds.

In my mind, I’m hunting for accuracy

That I should acquire

Just to solve the maze; the puzzle

In arranging you

In my own words and lines

Picturing you

Giving me insights

How to to solve the puzzle

And making you

Prettier in their eyes.

Together then alone

There are tons of things

That we did together

Bittersweet moments

Never fade.

Through time and time

Our tight hold

Starts to loose its grip

And now

The sea that we sailed together

Is a lonely place

As I captained my own vessel. 

Think and think

Everyday, every night,

Just right before I fell asleep,

I will think and think,

On how tomorrow will be,

Would it be filled with colours?

Would it be filled with despair?

Or would it be filled with mixtures

Of everything I can think of.

I am throwing my dice today

For tomorrow’s move.

Wake Up Dream

I woke up this morning

With fragments of dream

Tingling my thoughts.

Below consciousness

I saw you in white

Sitting on a bed

With longer wavy hair,

Smiling at me.

You just woke up

From your dreams too-

I supposed.

You just made my sleep. 

You gave me nothing

I made the hope-

And beg for it

To truly happen in my life.

You gave me nothing.

You gave me nothing.

I made my time

Just to let you know

That I can be the one

That you could rely on.

You gave me nothing.

You gave me nothing.

I showed you a promise

That I could stay and love

Like how I always dream to

You gave me nothing.

You gave me nothing.

And now I’m in prison

Of promises and hope

For your wise judgement

To give me anything.  

Trapped

Distance travels-

Drenched with memories

Created together with time and space.

I sit here with thoughts of you

Lingering my sense of rationale

Powering restless emotions

Bringing tears to my soul

Moments with memories crawl

Triggering the pain of my wounds

That used to make me

Perfect as you. 

Unreal Love Stories

Enveloped hope,

Shown by love stories;

Hoping for a miracle

Shown by projections on screen.

Walking on the ground

Makes me numb

When I realize

The hugs and kisses shown

Are unreal.

I gave my heart away. 

Revolve

I was given hope

To stand and believe

That I found the one.

Through moments spent

Slowly, I was bedazzled

By charm and smile

By openness of heart.

I shared too much.

I showed too much

Till you never see

The side that I want to show.

I revolve my world around you

My mistake.

Myself in You

I was hurt

From wounds of memories

Then I met you

Healed me

Touched me

Gave me strength

To erase and walk again

And I can never lose you

Even if I want to

Because I found

Myself in you.

Garden

I fantasize a garden

When I create

A throne for both

You and I.

I built the garden

By pavements of effort

Flowers of hope

Green grass of care and comfort

As if you would enter and enjoy.

But the sun of truth doesn’t shine

Bright enough to the corner

Of your heart

The light doesn’t resonates

Bright enough to lit up

Your thought and awareness.

And now I’m trapped

In my own maze

In my own garden.